Morning!!! =)

We prayed that we could get good O level results.

We prayed that we could get into VJC.

Now sometimes i wonder if poly would have been a better choice.

We start blaming everybody else, including God, for placing us in VJC. But isn't that we desired, something we prayed for day and night?

I start regretting sometimes to choose to get into VJ.

And i wonder if God had placed me in the correct school.

But yet, i'm convinced once again, that God is in control, and yes, He wants me there.

It's just really a struggle sometimes to be competing with all the smarto kids and trying to score all As for A levels. If you think it's easy, sorry, nope. It's twice as hard as trying to score an A during O lvls. Sometimes, when self-pity sets in, you think that you're a stupid child who cant get anything right. It's a horrible of mixture of the expectations of getting As coupled with a crippling inability to do so.

Yet, no matter how horrible i feel and how much i regret, i know that i have the Lord with me, and He alone has the best plans for me. =)

My wish is still to get into smu and do accountancy. But i figured out it'll not be that painful anymore if i can't get it. I'll just trust in God and that He truly has the best plans for me. =)

I'll pray now for good A level results.

And above all, that God will open the doors He opens, and close the doors that are meant to be closed.

You have the last say, Lord. =)