Musings! :)

I've come to a gradual and slow realisation that school is starting soon. I guess it's not so much of a dread for school - school's good and i know God has placed me there and i know it is always a blessing to be able to go to school. I guess it's more of leaving the routine that i'm having now that's a bit saddening.


Interestingly the past few months have really been quite a dramatic time in my life. And i don't quite need much prophetic powers to know this - it will be one of my better holidays in my whole entire school life. :)


I'm glad throughout this holiday i have had the pleasure of really re-considering my spiritual life and its ups and downs, that i have got to know a few more people better through work or just pure can click kinda friends, that i have expended my energy and found some satisfaction.


From this point on it will be some sort of paranoid worrying that well, i won't be able to do as much. That i wont be able to dedicate so much time to reading christian books, doing church stuff etc etc. Some sort of paranoid worrying also that i won't be able to spend time with people whom i've actually been accustomed to seeing. Haha, they're really fun people to hang out with, but when everybody gets busier with our own lives, if i'm paranoid i would think i won't even get to talk to them much already?


But at the end of the day, i just wanna thank God for all that He has been blessing me over the past few months. I feel really really blessed. :) Really really. I have been blessed with people who care, I have been blessed that i can do things i really enjoy doing. :) And school will be a blessing too, and i choose to see it that way. I don't know what the future holds, but God take my life... and i know i know i know i'd live under Your blessings still. :)

Thoughts.

In my puny little mind i always have to remind myself these things...


1) The House of God isn't looking for any other worker - it is looking for a lover worker who works to earn not money, fame or love, but to serve and love her God and His people.

2) The House of God shouldn't have people who take the shortcut way out - there shouldn't be concealing of irresponsibility with the veil of "you said, "no power, no presence, no point"... and i don't have any of the above, so i should quit ministry." - Loose words, don't even have that thought.

3) The House of God needs workers who are pure at heart - the heart is deceitful above all things and servants of God always need to make sure their heart is at the correct place - that their hearts belong to God and their fierce loyalty is for the anointed leader placed over their ministry - that in all things they do they can account to God that they have done it with the purest of intentions.

4) The House of God is still made up of people - people have their own thoughts, own styles, own minds, own interpretations even of the bible - Paul had to address the divisions in corinthians! - but always submit to one another in love.


I'm exceedingly covetous at this time. What i'm actually coveting for i dare not proclaim. But let me just make sure my heart is pure and my motivations are clean. Only that will make it a proper sacrifice fit for the King.