A bunch of cool pic

I was attempting to do the poster for the coming week... and stumbled upon these pictures which are quite cool. :) From the point of view of google earth.

When Moses parted the red sea:

Hey look, there's Adam and Eve! Oki this was supposed to be Google earth view of the Garden of Eden but i could never really spot the couple, haha.

Yay next up, Noah's ark. :)

Finally, this is kind of a interesting image of the cruxification scene.

Why in the world do we work?

It's an interesting timing to actually be listening to Benny Ho's sermon on "why in the world do we work?", i mean, the in-thing of the season is evanglism eh? Haha... but it was interesting and well if you're interested to know whether you are a workaholic, do the test below...


Personal evaluation to find out whether you are a workaholic:

1. I frequently meet ppl authority, but who are really no better than i
2. Once i start a job, i have no peace until i finish
3. I like to tell ppl exactly what i think
4. Whereas most ppl are conscious about their feelings, i like to deal with facts
5. I worry about business and financial matters
6. I often have anxiety about something or someone
7. I sometimes get so preoccupied with a thought that i can't get it out of my mind
8. I find it difficult to go to sleep because of something bothering me
9. I often find it difficult to relax; i need to be doing something
10. My mind is often occupied by thoughts about what i've done wrong or didn't do
11. My concentration isn't what it used to be
12. My personal appearance is always clean and neat
13. I always feel irritated by a messy table
14. I am more comfortable in a neat, clean working environment
15. I cannot go through a day without a schedule or to-do list
16. I believ that the man who works e hardest should get a head
17. If there's a job to be done, i'll cut down on leisure time
18. My conscience often bothers me about thinhs i've done in e past
19. There are things which i have done in the past that if made public, i would be embarrassed greatly.
20. I feel uncomfrtoable unless i get the highest grade in school
21. It's a bother when ppl get confused because they don't bother to find out about the facts
22. I frequently feel angry without knowing who or what is irritating me
23. I can't stand having my cheque-book or financial matters out of control
24. I think talking about feelings to others is a waste of time
25. I spend a lot of time washing something or keeping things clean
26. I like always to be in control of myself and thingshapenig
27. I have few or no close friends whom i share my feelings with openly
28. I feel i need to know the future to be in control
29. There are sins in life which i committed which i haven't lift down
30. I always avoid being late
31. I rarely give up until e job has been completely finsihed
32. I often expect things expect of myself tha no one would ask of himself
33. I sometimes worry about whether i was wrong or made a mistake
34. I would like others to see me as not having any faults
35. The groups and organistaions i join have strict rules and regulations
36. I believe God has given us commandments to live by, and we feel if we don't live up to them

My score's a happy 24. Haha. (In the congregation at that time only 1 2 ppl had a score above 25... haha)

Oki so what did i realise... i'm prone to being a workaholic.Tsktsk.

Oki besides that part, one thing which really hit me was that there's this thing called primary calling, and this thing called secondary calling. Our primary calling is a calling to being, which is, in other words, a calling to be a child of God. Our secondary calling is to be something - teacher, businessperson, engineer, whatsoever. And those two have to be in balance.

Also, ambition is fine - just that it's like hunger. Too much of it and you become a glutton... too little of it and well, errr, that usually doesn't happen. Haha.

Wheee~

The need to be special and loved. :)

Wheeee i was just thinking back about what Rachael shared at YM service a few weeks ago about girls needing to feel special and to feel loved. Like a princess.


I never really liked to admit that i have such a need (which is usually more subtle that i don't realise its existence... the only time it's obvious is on my birthday if i'm free enough to even think about it), cos it used to seem to me like a sign of weakness. I mean, we're supposed to be complete in Christ yea.


But yea, i'm proud to admit that i have the need to feel special and that need has been fuflilled by God.


Don't know if you actually know the story of how i got saved, so here goes:


The first time i went to any church was when Fangi brought me to City Harvest cos i missed EAOG's christmas service haha. I was blur like sotong and wasn't even really interested in God before that... i had real stupid reasons for going to church k. Firstly i figured i needed a religion, just in case i died early, so that i cld get to at least some heaven. Secondly, i was hearing a lot about the end times coming from my classmates and i was like, huhhhh i'd better get a religion soon la then even if the world came to an end i can save my own skin (actually on hindsight, this was actually a way that God attracted myself to Him... cos i hardly heard about ppl talking about end times in my school etc after i actually got saved, hah). I was actually quite open to any religion... so why did i choose to try out christianity? Cos to me then, it was the more appealing one cos my more "cool" friends are in it. Haha.


Well ok despite me entering church for the wrong reasons, guess what, i had an encounter with God the first time i went to any church. Never even heard about Jesus before, mind you. But in the first service i went to, when the praise song started playing, it was a crazy wooooshhhh. I suddenly felt a sense of deep peace, but at the same time, i felt like cryingggg... not because i was sad. I wasnt unhappy at all at that point of time cos my prelims got a real good perfect score. But ya, i felt peaceful at the same time i felt like crying. Like nothing i have ever felt before. In an instant i was brought to meet God, even though i couldnt even make sense of what was happening around me and i refused to cry. (well which is actually why i value worship so muchhhh... because the start of my salvation was during praise and worship) Anyways, first time to church, nopes didnt accept Christ.


FIrst time didnt accept Christ, never mind. Second time was to EAOG for a production (which i never figured out what it was haaaa... i was honestly blur throughout the whole thing). I suppose an altar call was given... but i cant remmeber that at all. All i can recollect now is that after the whole production ended, i was crying again because of a special touch from God... crying to Sarah Seow and Fangi was around too and some others. Can you imagine that? I was crying like nutttsss AFTER a productionnnnnnnnn.... there wasnt even any nice music in the background! Anyway, had in mind possible parental objections so didnt accept God then.


Third time to a church... this time to Ignite. 22nd Jan 2005, if i'm not wrong. That was the service which was, as i learnt later on, supposed to empower believers, i think. Dunno if an altar call was given for newcomers. But that day the hall was sooo crowded i think some of our churchies were standing on the steps to the stage. I was in like quite a happy corner of cornerstone... and guess what. Crying again. Couldnt help it this time... felt God's love soooo deeply that i knew i can never ever deny His presence and His reality. Aunty Aye Lan came over and she obviously could see me crying like mad and she knew i was new and she asked me whether i wanted to receive Christ. By then i was in a whole puddle of tears and figured, there was no way i could deny Christ ever. So i said the sinner's prayer. And in that instant, it was as if i suddenly knew who God was, who Jesus was... and when i confessed that He's my Lord and Saviour, i did it with all my heart, not cos i learnt about Jesus before that, but because of an instant imputed knowledge given by God when i confessed all my sins.


Ok that was a long story.


Eventually it took me around one month to stop crying during service. I'm serious. I was crying every single time i talked to someone about God or someone talked to me about God. And i stopped crying not because i didnt feel that touch anymore... but because, i got used to it. That peace which made me, the sinnerr who knew nothing about God and didnt really wanna know Him, cry and sob, is now readily available. I still feel the presence of God coming into my heart everytime i talk to Him... on the bus, when i'm walking, when i do QT... though i don't cry because of that anymore; because i'm soooo used to it already because it's always so available to me.


The other characters mentioned in my testimony have probably forgot about all these things already. But i remember, and God remembers too.


And until now i haven't heard of anyone else who has a story in this same manner and in the same encounter. This is my own salvation testimony, which makes me feel sooo special, and greatly loved. Just a princess? I think even more than that. :)

Recess

Shout with me, "RECESS!"

Yayyyyyyy.

Valentine's Day

It's Valentine's Day today (not exactly because "today" is yesterday).


I was actually half-sad. Not because i didn't have someOnE to celebrate Valentine's Day with other than my fellow churchies, but because nothing happened in my school. Nah no initiative giving out any presents, lollipops, tissue packets, no nothing. I'm envious of the NUS and NTU people. Really envious. Well at least i did what i can with the people in my sphere of influence.


Ok to the happier things.


I realised i haven't thought about BGR issues for quite a long time already. Did think briefly today since after all, it was Valentine's Day...
1) A nice song to play during my wedding would be "God must have spent a little more time on you"
2) I think a year later during Valentine's Day i might just start singing "Somewhere out there".
3) The most romantic scene i can ever think about is the sing "Bless the broken road" duet while playing piano accompaniment at the same time. (Then again, i'm not carrie underwood, so maybe not haha)


I'm drawing nearer to the marriageable age but i still have no idea what i look out for in a partner. Hmmm. But i'm quite happy with having every as friends now. It's much more relaxed and better than complicating the whole thing with anything else other than friendship. :)


Anyway, hope you had a good Valentine's Day. :)


God's my biggest lover. :)

Interesting. :)

Dear reader,


Yours truly here is currently trying to figure out why you read her blog. It's boring, normal (even though i know a christian's life ought to be exciting, but much exciting things i forget to post here -.- ~), repetitive in theme, and even the style is the same (duh, i write it everytime, haha).


There are many other lives that seem more exciting than mine to read about, many other bloggers who have much more interesting thoughts to share than me, many other blogs that have more beautiful templates than mine!


Which leads me to this question: why do i even have this blog to start off with when i didn't have in mind to entertain my audience or let people know about my life? The original reason has kind of altered over the years because of the shift in demography (i'm using this word in the wrong sense here, haha) of the people that are reading my blog. The current reason why i'm still keeping my blog, is plainly because I ("i" with the capital letter) actually read my own blog...! (And come out of my blog getting bored only to browse through others.) Well, i read my blog to do a mini revision of my life everytime i read my blog entries because each entry brings into mind not just the things written in that entry, but the feelings and emotions surrounding the event stated as well as surrounding events and things that happened during that time frame. (from which i note the things i think about have really changed over the year.... hee!)


But i still wanna thank you, dear reader, for reading my blog (whatsoever reasons you do it for) -- for even the puniest of interests you have in this life which God is still moulding.


Just to demonstrate my point that God is really still moudling me, i shall refer you to my past blog at http://ham-omlette.diaryland.com/. (Password: asdf, Username: asdf) (in the time that protected blogs were in fashion) Go to the archives and it dates all the way back to my sec3 days and also the first few months when i first got saved. I have to admit that i deleted that blog only partially because i was too lazy to update it... the main reason is because i was quite embarrassed about how i used to think and what i used to talk about. It's like, airing dirty lingerie. I got disgusted after reading my own entries (worse than a emo sec3 girls' school girl). Scroll down the archives all the way to the 03 ones to get my point. Haha. The only entry that isn't repugnant is probably the latest one on that blog... the rest of the blog entries, please read at your own risk. My dear friends and cell kids, if you're reading this, you can be elated that i have improved quite a bit (although still farrrrrr away from what has been intended for me).


Haha now, after reading my past blog, i feel as if i lost all my anionting already. Whaaa who am i, or rather, who was i Lord? Thank You Lord for tolerating me all this time, and now as well. (in this instance, i'm reminded again of God's grace towards all of us. If i looked at my blog in my capacity now as a 3 year-old christian who knows at least a little tiny bit of what being a christian means, i could never ever imagine that the writer of that blog would be anything great in the kingdom of God... just, look at how she talks and the way she thinks! But "look what the Lord has done hey hey hey!" -- I never deserved it, don't deserve it even now - how much You love me, how far You've brought me, how high You've flown me on Your wings, how many times You've carried me on Your back when that was all i could wrestle to pray for. "And You loved, a people undeserving")

"You ask me how, how i can be sure, how i know it's not just something else for fun.
Cos He's so real, so real in my life, He picked me up and turned my universe around.
Jesus came in, He came into my life, and i know i never felt so good.


Cos everything's changed, everything's different.... now"

-- Everything's changed from planetshakers (all that i want green colour album i bought probably wihtin 4 months of my salvation)

Chinese new year! :)

Hee i'm totally tired out after a school week (which is 3 official schools days and 3 project days, although today is only a wednesday... hah), so i might just sound a little grumpy here.


Hah recounting from my memory, had reunion dinner already on Sunday night. I was unfortunately stoning throughout almost the whole dinner (and silently observing interesting family dynamics), until my uncle asked whether i was still in the same church or not. Wheeee my uncle's an elder in his own church and all. A little more info about my family... my family was quite full of non-christians until 3 years ago when my clique of cousins started getting saved (every single reunion we have we'd talk about church church church and more church), and i think during the dinner i overhead something along the lines of my eldest uncle attending church too. Interesting eh. Good thing my ah ma was saved before she died (although me and my puny brain then didn't quite process correctly what being a christian meant, all i knew at that time was that i was glad to attend a smoke-free funeral). Ok back to the main point... after the dinner ended (oh ya the desert was some coconut thing again... quite cool... and ate something they called pen cai, some mixed vege and meat in a whole tub thing... which was ultra filling!), my uncle told me "serve the Lord!" as his ending message. Haha. It really sounds happier to know you've got a family member who's on the same side as Jesus too... not that my cousins arent, but it feels good to know that God is working amongst the "older" generation too. :)


Ok i'm really a bit tired now... eyes lids have that kinda closing kinda feeling. My dad proposed to visit the sentosa flower exhibition later. I'm like seriously like not interested in flowers (especially when i just feel like plonking myself onto my bed and hibernate until like, end of chinese new year or something haha), but i think i'm just going to go to spend some time with my family la.


Until tonight, an a few hours time when mini reunion dinner starts, it's going to be hi TWC for now.


Signing off, Shujing from within the tummy of the school library. :)

Ignite-d. :)

Is it possible to fall asleep well after having listened to 3 sermons in a day (of which 2 i found particularly amazing) and responding to 2 powerful altar calls straight after getting home? Haha. Well i did a bit of homework after getting home from ignite... and then fell asleep. Hah. So horrible right.


But well i've planned out a new battle plan by today morning. :) I won't announce it here though, it's a rather big plan, but if it's successful you'd definetly hear about it cos i'd probably share my testimony sometime. Haha. My life's going to be quite exciting in the days to come i think.


Well with ignite yesterday night, whenever i come across the verse about having a sea of witnesses surrounding us, i'd never think about the same things again...

• In AD230, there was a girl named something like Cecelia? :) The church was still young at that time and christians were still being killed. Cecelia probably knew what was going to happen to her then when she started spreading the gospel. She did get martyred at the tender age of 16... but by then, she had already shared the gospel with 400 other people.
• In AD304, there was a girl named erm, dunno how to spell this, Lutchya? She got saved at 8 and she felt shortly after her salvation that God wanted her to remain single so that she can serve God wholeheartedly. But sadly, her mum had already promised her to someone else in marriage. Fortunately, she shared the gospel with her mum and her mum finally got saved and agreed to not making her marry. However, the prospective groom's family wasnt too happy and brought them to the authorities. She refused to marry nor renounce Christ... so she got sentenced, not really to death, but to lifetime prostitution. She was so sad she prayed to die. But when the soldiers tried to get here, she was immovable, even by the cart. They then tried to sentence her to death. Guess what, when she was on the stake, the fire couldnt burn... She finally got martyred only when a soldier used his sword to pierce her neck.
• In AD1597, there was a young man in Phillipines who got saved at 15. At the age of 16, he felt that God had led him to Japan to become a missionary. So he went, with his other friends. They shared the gospel and got caught by the police when they were 22 years old. They were cruxified on 22 crosses outside the city... And you know what? They never gave up preaching the gospel... they were still preaching and telling the people who were looking at them about God's love right at the time they were on the stake... until they gave up their last breath. Someone got saved then, and even told the soldiers to cruxify him as well. That probably formed that foundation for christianity in Japan.
• In 1685, in Scotland, a revival was happening amongst the young people. But soldiers were commanded to go around to the villages and pose to people the question "are you christian?" following which if they said they were, they'd be killed. Many of the young people fled to the hills and formed villages filled with young people. One of these people were Magaret Wilson and her sister. One year later they were told that the persecution was dwindling so they wanted to go down to see their businessman father. Unfortunately on the way down, they got caught and were handed over to the authorities. Their businessman father sold everything he had but could only redeem the younger daughter... so Magaret had to die. They pinned her to a stake at the beach at low tide, hoping that she would have the time to actually renounce her faith when high tide slowly came. She never did, although many of her fellow townspeople and her father were begging her to. She eventually drowned... slowly, as the water level began to rise.
• In 1914, there was a ship called "Empress of Ireland. That was 2 years after Titanic, and although people were fearful of ships, they never expected Empress of Ireland to sink cos they thought bad things dont happen twice in a row. Of course they were wrong... the ship eventually collided and it went down, in a mere 40min. Almost everyone on the ship couldnt survive unless they had a lifevest on them. Survivor accounts eventually gave witness to a group of young people from salvation army, who actually threw their life vest to other survivors on board. A 40 year old man recieved such a life vest as well, and at first he thought he was 40 and the girl who threw him the life vest was still young, so he threw the life vest back. The girl got angry, threw the life vest back at him and said "i know i'd die better than you". She eventually died, alongside the whole group of salvation army youths who were there.

Crazy stories huh. I almost wanted to go home after the 2-4 service. Glad i didnt, cos i would have missed such powerful stories. Thing is, they are not just fictional. They were real people in real events (pardon me if i got any names wronggg or something). They were youths some even younger than me. They probably had no maturity much higher than mine... but they did have a faith bigger than mine. Just that, their "suffering" was really to get martyred. Ours now, is to live our life to the max and reach out to the maximum number of souls as possible.

As an ending i'm going to make a really anti-climax statement... i shall whine no more. :)

Thinkin'

Wheee the end of the week is almost here again! :)


All the sky might just fall because Shujing has started to think! :)


- Note the word "started" though. Whether i wanna continue is a separate matter.


Anyways. Well i was talking someone last night, and that person got me quiteeee thinking. I realised i haven't confronted God in a really really crazily long time... or, put it more accurately, i haven't sought God to confront me in a long time. In this busy busy period unconsciously i have made decisions to progress in some things, to change some of my character, and made some important altar call decisions on the way... but i've also unconsciously forgot to let God confront me, relegating my QT to a really happy and relaxed time. "I-am-far-from-there-yet-but-at-least-I-am-on-the-right-track" kind of feeling. Now it feels almost delusional that all-is-well.


Maybe it's time to sweat during QT already... to meet up with God face to face and ask Him to dig up the issues that are buried further down near my heart. Honestly speaking i dont even know what they are... but i guess it's these things... the very subtle blind spots which others can't even tell but somewhere at the bottom of your heart you can feel it hovering and sometimes floating into your mind then disappearing after a swift moment, that ultimately matter.


Thank You Lord!

The guns and the germs.

I thought this Technology and World Change book was interesting cos it was filled was historical stuff and really cool stuffs.


But when i opened the book... it went to talk about evolution and stuff and all the dates are dated back to 11,000 years ago and i went "ohh....".


Although i'm inclined to think that the Genesis Chap 1 ought to be taken literally, i'm open to thinking otherwise so as such i still haven't made up my mind about whether it's a literal thing or not.


But that's hardly the crux of the question.


You know how evolution said that we originated from the lines of apes and chimpanzees into homo sapiens? And we lived in the stone age for quite a bit? In Genesis 4 Cain and Abel were already keeping flocks and working the soil. Dunno how all these add up together and not really sure how. Certain timings and events don't match.


But the underlying tension is that... science and faith don't seem to match now. Interestingly scientific enquires were sparked off by greek judeo-christianity. Personally i feel science and faith match pretty well... or i should put it this way: i view science as a subset of faith. I've been taught faith doesn't exist cos science doesn't prove it; instead, in proves it wrong. Now i know the reason why science can't prove faith is because scientific inquiries go as much as only the natural world - it can't prove what is the supernatural for the very fact that supernatural is supernatural. How can you ever prove the supernatural by natural methods as if you were testing natural conventions? Another reason is simply that science (as i have been taught in secondary school and generally what ppl tell me) refuses to be subjugated to the supernatural realm. It acts as if it is independent or superior to faith. But really, i think God created and owns science. He uses science to help us work out our lives but He's to subjected to science and can perform supernatural miracles notwithstanding the fact that many miracles can indeed be created through the use of science. Think of the manna, the sun going back a few steps...


But then again, i'm no investigator of these things. I just got only minimally acquainted with science and evolution. With my really limited knowledge i have written down these things really to air my thoughts.


Along the 3 years i've learnt to see and read God's work in this world that seems to work independent of Him.


Oh ya that reminded me of the other thing i was wondering about. I have my doubts about evolution, but i have no doubt that the human kind did progress from stone age into the new world and to our current progress (such that i have to study technology and world change). So i had this question: is God the one who determines how we progress and who progresses? Or is it just another one of mankind's exploits? My own formulated answer: I dunno, and perhaps it's unnecessary to know. The main reason for me living is to save other souls and fulfill God's commandments - although academic study can be a bonus to my occasional spurts of curiosity. But anyway back to my original question. Neutrally, the bible isn't a science book. Science is in the bible but isn't a major topic of it. So it's difficult to tell. But i know God has been active in catering to people of the different ages; i'm quite sure God as pleased with the old chorals as the current pop christian music, although the former might view the latter as disrespectful and the latter would view the former as religious. But in my own limited knowledge of the bible, i can't figure if God has been actively promoting technological improvements all the time, although He as always been a pioneer in many ways such as ark building (water technology took up a considerable part of the TWC book... and i'm proud to say, God invented the "boat"!) and the many rules and regulations regarding like diseases mildew and all. Actually if God really wanted us to have the knowledge of these kinds of things He could just tell us straightforwardly right? But perhaps it's in our search for science that we see God too.


Well i dunno. I roughly "hated" science as in my secondary school days. Never got to know what was science science until now really. Hee maybe interest in some subjects can really be stifled by the need to score well in school. Tsktsk. Cos in the end every thing is quite related so i can't say i hate "science" anyway.


But well ultimately after such a long session of babbling, science doesn't rock my boat. God does. =)

New resolution for 2008. =)

Eeeks on the first day of school, i dismissed my lecturer's additional information about herself as "nonsense". I'm a horrible complaining student.


In consideration of the above, i have decided to make an additional new year resolution for 2008: No complaining about studies, teachers, school, fellow students, groupmates, classmates etc etc.


I should learn how to accord my school leadership and lecturers the respect i give to the spiritual leadership over me. Both are authority figures and my life, so i should obey and submit. And not deride their efforts.


No gossiping towards school entities... including daaa conductor whom i've been cultured into critisizing since my secondary school days way before i was even saved.


I don't want to transmit a complaining spirit around... i want to transit a really nice spirit around that's willing to obey the authority figures God has placed over her life. (if you want to picture this, i should be a sunflower instead of a cactus)


God help me in this and Holy Spirit remind me whenever i err. Thank You Lord! =)

Looming 2008

If i went according to my wishes, i'd just make december repeat over and over again. YM camp then YA camp, then the parties... it's really a holiday out with God and i really enjoyed it tremendously. But i know i shouldn't think so, because that's not what God would want. Everything in December wasn't meant to stay as a happy holiday, but an empowerment for the new year to come.


So 2008, here i come!


But before that... in this second last day of 2007, i shall announce that
1) My baby hairs are growing well, thank God for them (hope u saw them today morning sticking out of my other hairs!);
2) My stomach, or rather, my eating capacity seemed to have shrank. I'm feeling very very very full now! Don't even feel like eating my longans anymore;
3) I figured today when i saw all the whitish lines on my legg that i didn't totally wash off the soap from PAID yesterday. Tsk tsk. Haha.;
4) I just saw the "IMPECCABLE" masking tape we wrote during YM camp a minute ago in my kitchen. It has conveniently became the sticky tape that holds the surface of my mum's stool together. So cute. Haha;
5) These two days (today and tomorrow) will mark the last few hours of my brain degeneration through multiple and continuous sessions of slacking-and-doing-nothing-constructive-and-letting-my-brains-go-on-a-holiday. Sadly so but yes, i have to move on and develop my brain, especially the frontal bit. =)


Although i personally do not mark out change in years like how when i play music i ignore the bar lines, it is always comforting when there's a point in (or in-between) the year(s) to actually kick start once again on fresh ground.


With trepidation and yet a silent confidence because God is with me, HELLO 2008! =)

Random wondering

You know, it has always seemed more correct for an aethist to cry "we dont want God in our world" than for christians to cry "we want to see God in society"?


Christians are often the ones defending while those who don't believe in God are the ones attacking.


But i have a right to insist on the existence of God as much as you have a right to insist on the non-existence of God, right?


It's as if omitting something was better than committing something; that omitting God was better than letting God in.


But both assumptions (that there is or there is no God) are equally controversial and equally important so omission is no better than commission, right?


There's a saying by someone... that if God isn't true, christianity is utterly useless. But if God is true, then christianity is of utmost importance.


Different people take different sides, and some are hopelessly straddled in the middle.


Don't worry, i'm not some extremist seeking to change the system to one that assumes God instead of one that somewhat tries to exclude God... After all, the different sides have, despite their different underlying beliefs and lifestyle principles, been able to survive together in a common world. Cos i know assuming God in my world (the word assuming is used for the sake of this post only.... i assert that i don't really assume God in my world, firstly because it's not an assumption in the sense that i know for real He is real, and secondly God is real no matter whether you believe whether He is or not) doesn't take a system change - it takes a lifestyle and mindset change on my part. I said it already... it's more got to do with underlying beliefs and lifestyle principles rather than system fault.


Haha i know this is something controversial, but anyway this post is just to remind myself, that the next time someone says he/she is proud to be an aethist, i can comfortably and loudly say that i'm proud to be a child of God. =)

$88 dinner. =)

Hey dearies! I just came back from a only-a-few-times-in-a-lifetime kind of $88 (excluding GST and service charge) dinner! Sponsored by my elder sister... who gladly wants to treat us because she calculates everything by dividing it by 3. Cos she just came back from england and calculated that she could afford this meal since she stayed near her office and saved a huge sum on the public transport.





Well first let me introduce you to the venue... It's at esplanade, called my humble house. Hee. Well actually if i were a traditional superstitious asian, i would have refused to sit at the table i was. Well besides seeing my mummy, do you see the extra high chair back? It was artistic and cool, but it also reminded me of the jiang shi... cant remember what you call it in english. And the thingie supporting the table was a mini rectangular pond, and obviously, if i were a superstitious asian, that might seem like a coffin. Haha. Well the lighting was red and the furnishing was largely black. Hee. But well, me being a happy person, saw that as artistic in the most simplest of senses. Hee. =)





It was a 8-course dinner... Don't have the full menu here but here it goes:







One of the dishes was obviously , shark's fin!!! It was crazily nice (haha, pardon the limited vocabulary... you don't have much of a gourmet here.). The broth was really rich and even the aftertaste was rich.




Another dish was ginseng chicken (picture on left). Now where's the ginseng? Hmmm... figured out when i ate it that the ginseng was really IN the chicken... cool huh. The chicken meat was really tender... like, it really just melts in your mouth. It wasn't the overcooked kind until it hardens nor the undercooked kind that you need tremendous skill to tear the meat apart. The meat just comes apart at a slight pull. Really cool.

Ah hah... there was vegetables too... picture is really blur so i guess no use putting it up.


Wheee oh ya next notable dish: DA LOBSTER. =) Took me quite a while to savour this dish because i had to struggle to get the meat out of it's shell. Haha. But the meat was worth the fight. It'll be an insult to say that it tasted like a huge prawn but nicer than prawn. Haha. But... er i really don't know how to describe it.














Ah hah... the picture here makes my sorbet look big. But it's really quite a small portion. But it's sooooo different from your usual crushed ice lychee... the ice was like, fine... and it really melts in your mouth instantly. It wasn't too sweet as if you poured a whole lot of syrup into it... actually, it didn't even feel like syrup-ed. And well i liked the nuts that accompanied it. =)
















Uh huh! You might not be able to see it clearly, but this is oxtail meat plus some kind of noodle (and a stalk of vege at the side). =) The noodles was tremendously soft, any melt-in-your-mouth thing... doesn't taste at all flour-ly. The meat stew smelt good, although the taste if you ate it by itself was a little overwhelming, with the noodles it tasted really good. =) Don't know how they actually made the broth, but the little bit of the broth felt like rich chicken essence.... really nice! Think all that juice from 10 xiao long baos combined fitted into a bowl. Yummmy!












Now for my favourite dish of the day: the desert!!! Haha. It was one that excited my senses the most (the only picture i took with flash, too). It came with dry ice... and my whole family went nuttish together upon seeing it. It was pretty with the rose petals and all! Okie main point was... it was latte ice cream with avagardo cream-ish melted ice cream in a coconut. Cooling, and interestingly i wasn't put off by the avagardo cos it didn't feel greasy at all.






Well besides the food, my family indulged in some kind of weird scientific enquiry...: what is colour? Hee, cos colour is a matter of perception, so we were really wondering, what is colour? But to this mind here, scientific inquiries do not interest my mind as much... i'd probably be more interested in talking about human behavior than wavelengths and infrared and x-rays. You might call this brainlessness, but i've made a conscious effort not to complicate my thought process too much because i believe in simple things called intuition and common sense. Or rather, i have had probably too little time to delve into subjects of interest; school life is far too hectic... and most of the time, i can get by academically without thinking at all.


Well which made me think of my two smart sisters. My elder sister got 3As for A levels... when she did so badly for prelims my parents were requested to see the teachers. Crazy huh. She was playing her whole time in JC but still managed good results (the only reason why she didnt get 4As is because she immediately dropped 1 subject when she figured she could do with 3 in JC). My younger sis is a potential medical school student, with really good portfolios. But what about me? Haha... but i figured, it wasn't about me. It's not about the talents i had; cos what matters is the talents that i put to use for God's kingdom. It's never about me as per me anyway, it's always about God. And whatmore, no matter how much people say "life is unfair", i think God has been always very fair in terms of distributing the gifts and the talents. =) He created some as hands, some as eyes, some as the brain cells... and it would be impossible for the hand to function as the center of the brain, eyes as the foot.... ok i actually dunno if such cell implantations would be possible but well. Haha.


On a side note, the brain and the mind is a different thing. Interesting thought. I shall look deeper into that soon. =)

Thank-you-s. =)

Heyheyhey!!! =)


Before the year ends, i just wanna thank a few (ahem) people for making my past year such a wonderful one. =)


First group of people: my YM cell! Thank you Lizzie, Kelly, Chloe, Faithe, Janna, and even Rachel, for being there since the start of the cell. =) Thank you Angeline, Serene, Sarah S, Christine, for coming in during metamorphosis and made me feel that there is growth potential in the cell. Thank you Joy, Aaron (i just realised your bible is like the nicest one i've bought lehh... read it more k. Haha), Avelene, Jie Shi, Mabel, Benjamin, Daniel, Daniel (the Aminah-daniel), Joyce and Mel gege for coming in within this year. Thank you of course, for this year's P6es, Yue shan, Tyan Wei and Amanda. You guys have added so much colour into my life laa... =) Each and everyone of you has been a blessing to my life... especially the times when each one of you say the sinner's prayer, or say that you've been reading the bible. =) Continue growing yea, and we'll do well with the multiplication. The harvest doesn't stop in 2007.


Second group of people: my YA cell! Thank you Vanessa my dearest cell leader! Thank you Xiuyu, Huikoon, Alex, Coral, Mishuelle, Michelle, May, Sarah Lin for all the wonderful memories of cell time... all the energies spent on counting the cost... all the prayers during YA camp! =)


Third group of people: YM comm. Haha. It has been a pleasure working with each and every single one of you guys... you all inspire me a lot, with all your talents, your hard work, your perseverance, and your love for God. It's tremendous. =)


Fourth group of people: the "JC clique"... aka the "uni clique". Haha errr well, never really liked to acknowledge the existence of this supposed clique as others would call us cos it connotes some kind of exclusivity. But anyway, to this cute little informal circle of friends, i just wanna thank you all for making my uni life much more bearable. =) Thank you all for the "emotional support" especially during the first period of my uni life. And it has been really fun hanging out with you all! =)


Ooh and i would personally wanna thank the YA comm too, you guys have been of great help especially the time when i dragged you all in to help out for the YM party! Hee. Ooh ooh LA too! Haha... you guys reduce my stress levels during parties la. =)


I wanna thank my family too (i know you guys will never see this but well)... hee! =)


Well saving the best for the last, i would like to thank God for all the good things and the bad things as well. None of the above would have been possible if without you. =) You make my life worth living. =)


Okie... somewhat the end of thank-you speeches... i think there are many people whom i forgot to thank lehh... Ahhhh!

Wheee!

I realised my first car might not be one of those cute butt-less cars.


Cos a Nissan March costs more than a Nissan Sunny; cos a Toyota Yaris probably costs more than a Toyota Vois; and although a Honda Jazz is quite at the end of the scale of Honda cars, it's still more expensive than a Nissan Sunny or Toyota Vois.


But then again, the difference is just a few thousand dollars. What's the difference of $2,000 when you're spending $60,000 on a car?


But then again, a Toyota Vois is cheaper but looks more expensive and seems prettier than the butt-less cars. Haha.


Okie i'm day-dreaming again.


It's going to be public transport for now. =)

Fairytaleess. =)

Hello hello, i'm not getting married next week ok. Haha. Ave and Serene wrote on the christmas hat to me "Marry me! Just kidding."


Anyway. It is the christmas festiveeee feeling (hai i gotta say i'm somewhat feeling ashamed of myself giving myself excuses to glue my eyes onto the tv and day-dreaming at night and stuffss when the true meaning of christmas is all about Jesus. How did the King of Kings and Lord of Lords getting born in the manger become such a celebration of... almost nothing about the birth of Jesus Christ? But this shall be considered in a seperate post).


Okkk that was the side note... so what was i thinking about? Oh yes day-dreaming.


(Warning: this is going to be another post about Shujing thinking about marriage... tsk tsk... but it's better than posts about Shujing thinking school right? Haha.)


Actually i think i might be quite a sad blob of stuff if my whole life errr is just spent on thinking and contemplating about marriage. There are after all better and bigger and more essential things for me to do than to raise godly kids who will add to God's kingdom, right? Haha.


But that being said.


Actually i'm dreaming of more than just a fairytale you know. I'm not looking for a prince charming that comes on a white horse (although i do like white considerably)... but a godly man (author's emphasis) that (errr, dunno what to fill in here. Haha.). I'm not looking for a true love's kiss to save my from errr, vegetation... but a kiss at the altar that symbolizes union of two beings until God comes and takes either one of us away. I'm not looking for a proposal on some horse coupled with a whole choir out of the whole forest.... but a proposal in church. Haha. Wha. Okie i'm asking for a lot. Fine.


Snaps out of day-dreaming mode. That'll be 2 more years ++ to go.


So wellies.


Happy birthday Jesus! In the meantime until You help me find that oneee and that oneee finds me, i'm Yours wholly. =)

Deeply in love.

It's all simple.

Just fall more and more in love with God every single day.

Can't describe to you exactly how God never gives up on me... He's always doing things which give me an opportunity to step back and stand in awe of Him.

=)

In my life You've heard me say
I love you.
How do I show you it's true
Hear my heart,
it longs for more of you..
I've fallen
Deeply in love with you..

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen
Deeply in love with you

You and I, together for ever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you,
grows stronger each new day.
I've fallen
Deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I'm captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I've fallen
deeply in love with you

More than conquerer

Back from Camp Infaction... was nothing less than overwhelmed by God's presence.

God spoke... and spoke clearly. The expectations i had spelt out to my darling cell leader the day before church camp was all fulfilled by God... one the first day. As i can expect, the next two days were all above and beyond what i expected, hee as usual, since my God gives abundant blessings. And if i were bold enough to say - the sermon on the last day was made for me. It addressed all the issues and was about the exact same topic i was crying to Sarah Lin about the night before. "Patience" is the word now for me... a word which i heard for 2 services. And also, "the best has yet to come", "influence" - All the dreans which at some point in this year i've contemplated about not being able to have or achieve. There is much more for me to expect in my life... a life which would impact many others that's beyond my wildest dreams. A life that's much more different than those around me, for it will be holy, and pleasing to God.

It was a breakthrough - a breakthrough that came not with physical manifestation (which i expected to have with a breakthrough), but with a clearer knowledge of my destiny and a deeper communication with God by going all the way back to the child-like faith which i once had but complicated as time went by.

Well reality sets in now. After Camp Influenza and Camp Infaction. But it's different this time... because through both camps, i have obtained a silent confidence required for me not just to live through uni the way i did in JC, but to emerge victorious as well.

I thank God for the successful two camps, and CFFF as well, and His constant speaking to me in ways i never expected and comprehended and even acknowledged... the answers i got when i prayed about what to share for prayer, my A level results, my school, the many promptings i have to check my work, and many many other things and events.

I am MORE THAN CONQUERER in Christ.

Self-check time!

Wheee its the holidays and finally a time for me sit down and really think about what has happened over the past few months... what i've done, what can be improved, where should i go next, how have i matured.

And think about whether i should delete this blog.

If this blog has failed to at least hint at the presence of God in my life, it has utterly failed its purpose and it's probably time for me to delete it.

Maybe let's think about this way: if after 3 years i still fail to reflect God's presence in my life, my current lifestyle needs loads of working on.

The many things that i ramble about in my blog, the many random revealed somewhat personal thoughts and emotions (haha some of my cell kids say im a crazy girl obsessed with getting attached muahahaha) -- if these personal emotions have failed to show a life that is concerned with being in line with God's word, this life needs loads of improvement.

Haha so is the problem with the blog or with the lifestyle? Should be the latter. But it's not nice displaying dirty lingerie in public - that's why there's a problem with the blog.

Can you believe i feel like sleeping now? Haha... wondering why i'm thinking in such a weird way then... WHEEEE!!!