Yours truly here is currently trying to figure out why you read her blog. It's boring, normal (even though i know a christian's life ought to be exciting, but much exciting things i forget to post here -.- ~), repetitive in theme, and even the style is the same (duh, i write it everytime, haha).
There are many other lives that seem more exciting than mine to read about, many other bloggers who have much more interesting thoughts to share than me, many other blogs that have more beautiful templates than mine!
Which leads me to this question: why do i even have this blog to start off with when i didn't have in mind to entertain my audience or let people know about my life? The original reason has kind of altered over the years because of the shift in demography (i'm using this word in the wrong sense here, haha) of the people that are reading my blog. The current reason why i'm still keeping my blog, is plainly because I ("i" with the capital letter) actually read my own blog...! (And come out of my blog getting bored only to browse through others.) Well, i read my blog to do a mini revision of my life everytime i read my blog entries because each entry brings into mind not just the things written in that entry, but the feelings and emotions surrounding the event stated as well as surrounding events and things that happened during that time frame. (from which i note the things i think about have really changed over the year.... hee!)
But i still wanna thank you, dear reader, for reading my blog (whatsoever reasons you do it for) -- for even the puniest of interests you have in this life which God is still moulding.
Just to demonstrate my point that God is really still moudling me, i shall refer you to my past blog at http://ham-omlette.diaryland.com/. (Password: asdf, Username: asdf) (in the time that protected blogs were in fashion) Go to the archives and it dates all the way back to my sec3 days and also the first few months when i first got saved. I have to admit that i deleted that blog only partially because i was too lazy to update it... the main reason is because i was quite embarrassed about how i used to think and what i used to talk about. It's like, airing dirty lingerie. I got disgusted after reading my own entries (worse than a emo sec3 girls' school girl). Scroll down the archives all the way to the 03 ones to get my point. Haha. The only entry that isn't repugnant is probably the latest one on that blog... the rest of the blog entries, please read at your own risk. My dear friends and cell kids, if you're reading this, you can be elated that i have improved quite a bit (although still farrrrrr away from what has been intended for me).
Haha now, after reading my past blog, i feel as if i lost all my anionting already. Whaaa who am i, or rather, who was i Lord? Thank You Lord for tolerating me all this time, and now as well. (in this instance, i'm reminded again of God's grace towards all of us. If i looked at my blog in my capacity now as a 3 year-old christian who knows at least a little tiny bit of what being a christian means, i could never ever imagine that the writer of that blog would be anything great in the kingdom of God... just, look at how she talks and the way she thinks! But "look what the Lord has done hey hey hey!" -- I never deserved it, don't deserve it even now - how much You love me, how far You've brought me, how high You've flown me on Your wings, how many times You've carried me on Your back when that was all i could wrestle to pray for. "And You loved, a people undeserving")
"You ask me how, how i can be sure, how i know it's not just something else for fun.
Cos He's so real, so real in my life, He picked me up and turned my universe around.
Jesus came in, He came into my life, and i know i never felt so good.
Cos everything's changed, everything's different.... now"
-- Everything's changed from planetshakers (all that i want green colour album i bought probably wihtin 4 months of my salvation)
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