RaNdoM post.

I was feeling quite gloomy for the whole of today... it doesnt feel like a friday because fridays are supposed to be happy! But then again, i shouldn't be submitting my emotions to the whims of the situation... i should be submitting my emotions to God instead. Yeps. =)

There are many things that happened over the week which would have got my attention and got me into a whole thinking thing, but i haven't had the energy nor the time to think properly actually. During work, my whole mind would be about PTOs, cover letters, the people whom i'm working with, the time sheet, the printer. After work, it'll be phroneo phroneo and more phroneo. Haha. Or otherwise, more staring into space. I realised i was standing on the mrt just now for 3 whole stops without thinking about anything at all.

But yes, i'm still on the goal of making myself the one who 'creates the fire' instead of 'kapping the fire from others'. So to speak. It's not all that easy, but i've got to try and keep my mind on it.

I shall grow more in God this year. =) He makes me feel so much better la, i just sang a few lines of "in my life, be lifted high" in the lift, and i immediately felt relieved of all the gloom. =)

Haha. Oh and i got my pay!!! My study bible, here i come!!! =)

Let us sing
Shout to the Lord, all the earth, let us sing;
power and majesty praise to the King.
Mountains bow down, and the seas will roar
at the sound of Your name.
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands,
forever i'll love You forever i'll stand
nothing compares to the promise i have in You.

My Jesus, my Saviour. =)

Wondering...

Wondering why i am staring at the com once again after staring at the com for such a long time at work.

Do you know why?

Haha.

(Fyi, uh, that question wasnt meant to inspire you into anything. I just needed some way to end this post off. Bye!)

Thank You Jesus.

Hellos! =)

Guess i haven't updated this for some time... lemme me think about what were the interesting things that happened in the past week... *mind goes blank for a short moment*.

Ah yes, yesterday i got stuck in the lift for nearly an hour when i went for work. Yes, the building was new, and the lifts were now, but the lift still spoilt anyway. And we were on the 3 1/2 storey, although the screen thingie showed that we were on the 2nd storey. Haha. My friend was considerably shocked. But i was like, heh, ok, this might be fun. 6 ppl in the lift in total. In the end we got out safe and sound. Heh.

Work has been fine... just that sometimes when i close my eyes and in my sub-conscious state, i'm dreaming about PTOs and more PTOs.

One of my most joyful moments in the week (excluding my weekend, which is usually happy) was when kelly messaged me and told me she was doing her QT. That made my day totally. Haha and i just have to repeat this: i love my cell kids! =) Oh and last sunday we came up with some funny slogan (slow-gan actually): Some smart smiley small snail smiled smartly. Try reciting that. Haha.

There are actually a thousand things i'm in some way thinking abt in my mind... YM service just now abt storms, the debate thing, the DNA thing, my possible career choices dadada... but currently, i'm letting my mind go on a break. So yes, won't blog much. Btw, i really like the song played after service, the funny i'm not an apple hanging on a tree. Haha!

Have a blessed day ahead to you who's reading this. =)

Just some humour.

My cell had some sharing of pick-up lines over dinner on saturday. When faithe wasn't around and neither were the P6ers.. (awww..). Haha. It was just for humour's sake... really not going to use it on anyone. It's really funny anyway. Guys please dont learn from this...

Here are some funny pick-up lines (personal comments in brackets):
... Excuse me, I believe one of your ribs belong to me! (wha.. this is super funny la!)
... You know Jesus? Me too!
... Is it a sin that you stole my heart? (haha, i personally won't ever ever go out with anyone who says this... keep your heart with Jesus, boy!)
... Do you need help carrying your bible? It looks heavy.
... I think something dropped... ... my jaw!

Oh here's a funny break-up line (not advised to use, please.)
... I do love you, but it's just agape now.

Haha. Okie that was just for humour... i think relationships are too serious matters to be brought up with pick-up lines. Don't use those ah!

A new year! =)

Spent my first moments of 2007 in senette. Trying to pop the party popper whilst i waited for the sparkling thingie to stop sparkling. After that... uh, we were supposed to watch a movie, but i went to talk to lydia and when i finally got to the place to stare at the tv, i fell asleep. Heard that nelkai was trying to wave to me but i had no reaction. Haha. Oh wellies. Then soon after, (soon after for me cos you know when you're sleeping, time moves faster... haha), fang xian, lydia and me went to fang xian's house to sleep. Heh. Ok... we didn't sleep actually until around 5. Spent some time talking about some stuffies. Hee. Er the topics ranged from BGR to ministry and er, kids? Haha.

Maybe i should go back to sleep now and catch up and those long-lost sleep time. Heh!

Consecrated and going to part the 'river jordan'.

Song of Thanksgiving

Whahaa... come on everybody let a shout of thanksgiving to Jesus with me. =)

At the end of the day... i just wanna smile and be happy for the Lord has been good to me.

I have a wonderful cell (and i mean wonderful wonderful) -- lizzy, kelly, janna, faithe, rachel, chloe, melissa, angeline, tricia, serene, christine, sarah -- in leadership its expected that you give... but i think these cuto cell people have blessed me so much so much la. =) It has been a privilege and joy to be with them. =)Haha. Just felt like emphasizing for a moment how wonderful my cell people are. =) Love them loads.

Actually i think i've had it quite easy in life... i have really really cool parents, have been to good schools, have gotten fairly good grades, haven't had any major setbacks in my life.

Yet sometimes i look at others and start to think that i have really little talents... i mean, haha, i'm not a really good speaker who can bring up the mood of the crowd. Neither am i a really good keyboardist. And i'm seriously blur sometimes!

Haha. Those 2 seem to even each other out huh... God is a just God. I can't have it all well in life. He is good to me. Very good to me. =)

At the very bottomline, i shall just say that, i will find true joy not in my accomplishments or what i possess or what i have, but i have found true joy when i found my Lord Jesus Christ. =)My hope lies in Him, and Him alone. =)

Thank you Lord!

Hellos! =)

I've just finished reading 1 Samuel... Saul and David and Samuel. Hoping to finish 2 Samuel later on. =) I seriously need more time with God and Him alone.

You know sometimes you set goals for your christian walk? Mine was to study hard and score well and get into a good uni and get a good job and glorify God through all those things. And get a cute HDB flat and stay in there for more than 10 years, get a toyota yaris, so as to give more money for offering and all. But somehow along the way... i seemed to have digressed from running after God to running after the goals. Which is... wrong. So it's time to steer back to the main road again, of worshipping God, and making Him the top priority and most loved of my entire life and being. I call it, from goal-orientated to God-orientated. =)

Oh before i forget, i just wanna thank the whole YM christmas comm (i dunno who's reading this actually...) -- Gaius, Sunny, Ben, Ian, Dawn, Jarrold, Junwei, Gideon, Nelson, Pamela Peh -- for all your help for YM christmas party! =) Apologies if i offended anybody. Ooh and thanks to the YA christmas comm as well! For helping us with the food and freeing up BASC and all. Thankies! =)

And i woke up in the morning planning again. Woohoo. Yes, i'm back from my 'retreat'. Ready to go again. (i got really tired out after christmas and all...) So arranged for an ephi meeting, a cell meeting of some sort. It's always good to start off the year by knowing what you're going to do, right?

Haha. But i'm still running away from some stuffies. Haha, like, where's that post-mortem for christmas party?

Okie fine, let's move on and see what else has been on my mind these days.

Shopping for office wear... because i'm starting work on 3rd jan! Have spent $400 so far already... see lah, spend so much $$ before i even earn anything. Tsk tsk!

And oh yes that evergreen topic. I won't get attached before 21, but still can't help thinking that it's going to be such a fairytale if i really do lah. Come on shujing, where's that faith that God already has a guy for you somewhere?

Hhaa okie to end off this whole post... shout with me "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". Okie yes. I'm happy now.

Lunch, read bible, then go to church, then go for band chalet. Hmmm. It has been a good and fruitful holiday. =)

Christmas! =)

Wow how long haven't i blogged... haha. Wellies, it has been quite of a mad rush these few days and i hardly had much time to slack around.

Ooh i presented my very cute christmas present for God just now... I GOT WATER BAPTISED!!! Woohoo! I thought i'd have to wait until i'm 21... but... yay, i'm already water baptised and officially (in documents) a christian! Taddaa!!!

The previous days just flew past... so now, it's time for me to get down to writing those christmas cards for everybody.

I'm off to shower... and maybe compose a song that i dreamt about or something. =)

Woohoo! =)

Passion to action.

WOOHOO!!!!!

I'm back form YM camp... and i'm really really happy to announce that: YM CAMP WAS SUPER DUPERLY GREAT! Loads of thanks to the camp comm (esp the camp commander. I wonder if i'd have the patience he had under those circumstances and scenario.) and YM comm! =)

It was pretty fun.

All the water bombs and all... and the dodging ball game! Haha. (Although i was very much just staring and walking around and stoning). And all the laughing and laughing. Ooh and good food too, prepared by Auntie Ang and 2 others aunties. Hee. We're really well fed... i mean, just think about all that chee cheong fun for breakfast and curry chicken for lunch. Not forgetting the team cheers (Read the bible pray everyday amen!). And the returning journey of Jarrold married and Faithe garderner.

But it was more than just fun.

There was an unprecedented level of unity, i should say. The leaders seemed to have suddenly grown a thousand leaps after leaders retreat... they were so enthu and all! And even though the groups consisted of people from different cliques, people whom would never ever really talk to each other during the normal times, most people still bonded anyway. I saw that unity coming into play esp during the war camps... you see people cooperating with each other, and different people coming out of their own comfort zones and scarem, shout and run. It was like, wow!

Most importantly, we met God.

There were 3 salvations during YM camp, praise God! Serene (well, kind of encouraged her to say the sinner's prayer again just to seal that salvation. Hee.), and teck choon (who gave a really cute testimony afterwards). And serene kind of spoke in tongues! And the spiritual atmosphere was good. Everybody was tired... but in the second night, joel gave a call for people who wanted to stay to continue worshipping and interceding for all the campers, and many did stay and that time just quite blew me away. By the third night, eveybody stayed when hosea gave a similar call to that... people could leave, but everybody stayed anyway. And that was when we were feeling tremendously tired... i had to kneel and stand up and kneel again (a total distraction according to faithe) to keep myself awake. Beyond all that, i think almost everybody has indeed had an encounter with God during the camp. Not that the roof got blown away, but i have this feeling that something is already churning deep inside our hearts. A time of renewal, and change, in preparation for something bigger and deeper.

All these said, the battle begins now.

It's always easier to stay spiritually high during camps. We're surrounded by godly people, and the spiritual atmosphere is relatively better (i've noticed quite some time ago about how my mood gets lifted when i get into church, and how dark clouds seem to loom over school the atmosphere is just not right.), there there is a constant encouragement by leaders and all, and we are quite ensured of a time to seek God. But now it's back to reality. Back from the family vacation with God. Here, we might be the lone ones who have to attempt to act as the thermostat (being a thermometer would be out of the question.), encouragement would come largely from ourselves to ourselves and from the Holy Spirit to us, and our minds are constantly bugged by different thoughts, worries, feelings, emotions that threaten to derail us from communicating with God.

But whatever the case, i choose to believe that the victory would be ours.

We'd eventually win the battle. We'd grow to be people closer to God. We'd carry out our SMARTER plans. And the next time we get back to St. Johns, we would have more than doubled... in both quantity and quality. We have the Holy Spirit with us!

YM camp has officially ended, but the battle has just begun.

Passion to Action.

=)

Back from Leaders' Retreat

I just woke up after a 6h nap after coming back from leaders' retreat!

The bath never felt so good and even the toothbrush and toothpaste was considered a rare commodity.

Oh and i shall declare that i have SURVIVED leaders' retreat! Hee. Wont say that i more than survived it though... couldnt take parts of the PT and all the walking and stuffs (in these two days, i have probably walked more than i had in a few months combined together!), and conked out already on the 1st day with my 6h only sleep the night before. It was bad and i didnt know what i was doing. Interesting i was quite awake on the 3rd today morning (which is also today morning), but once we arrived in spore, all my tiredness came back again and i walked at a snail's pace, cos' now certain muscles are aching badly! Heh.

What's more important is the principles we learnt i guess... unity, teamwork, discipline, alertness, obedience, and all that kind of things. Ooh and the application from then on is important as well.

Hee i probably never seen pastor mark scold so badly the "I CAN STILL SEE YOUR SHADOW!" line before... and actually i thought the instructors werent that unreasonable at all... i mean, haha, i probably was more unreasonable when scolded my juniors in secondary school lah, and my seniors probably scolded more too. I mean, sometimes the scoldings are necessary to wake us up to reality.

Oh and yes, during this leaders' retreat, i'm realising how far off i am from the mark that is fitting as a leader. If i had acted like how i did in ubin when the situations arise, i dunno what wld happen the people im supposed to lead. But wellies, at least now i know more of my weaknesses then i can start changing from there! =)

I'm just kind of concerned that once i got back to spore, its back to my usual life again... i mean, hey, after the retreat, some things got to change!

Yeps so i shall actively change some things now.

Haha lotsa other things like how mishuelle got a little crazy over ying chuan and stuffies, and me eating a slice a plain white bread for breakfast (which i'd not do during normal times), and all squating down all screaming "ahhh!", but im getting a little too lazy to note them all down here. So i guess... camp was quite fun overall! Haha. Fun in a peculiar manner lah, not the mainstream fun.

Ooh and YM camp's coming up soon! Exciting exciting! But i do hope that the 5BX thing would be more relaxed... muscles aching now so dont think i can do the crazy crunches now. But nevertheless, yay yay yay yay yay its going to be soo soo fun! =) Cant wait cant wait... oh actually wait, i need one more day to get my sleep back first. I dont want to conk out during YM camp! Must try to be on my highest energy level and have the bestest attitude.

I need to go poop now after not doing for 2 days. Eek. So gross. Haha. I guess i could have done away with that detail. So, ok, byebye and see you at YM camp! =)

Heyhey! =)

Life is much more exciting nowadays -- my upcoming job (i think), leaders' retreat (woohoo!), YM camp (yay!), YA camp (cool!) and christmas party (ahhh yes!!!).

Well. Perhaps its precisely because of the 'happening-ness' of my life at this point of time that i have a reduced desire to blog.

Errr so here's a smiley face to make up for the times im not blogging -- =)

Enjoy life... because Christ is life. :)

Nice Quote! =)

Haha. I'm here to quote a nice quote!

Earth's crammed with Heaven,
and every common bush afire with God;
but only he who sees takes off his shoes.

From Elizabeth Barrett Browning.
Taken from the book i'm currently reading called 'hearing God'.

=)

Hellos! =)

The bgr thingie seems to be an evergreen topic.

In my own little constructed words, its a topic which links single women of all ages together. Whether you're 12, or 21.

But... haha... i've decided not to get myself into some bgr thingie before i turn 21. Heh.

21 should be a nice age... when i'm more mature and when i know what i want out of life and have a rough estimation of who i can achieve that life with.

But whatever the case, there's always a need to wait for God's timing. I may plan, but His timings are always still the best. =)

In the meantime, i shall be a happy crushless single until the correct time (and guy) comes. =)

Total Liberation's Arrival

A wee bit more to go...

A cute little harmless 3h Maths 'S' paper.

I just hope i don't stone that much during the paper. Think more, you'd get the answer somehow!

And then... at 11am tomorrow (21/11/06), 12 years of education would finally be over. Maybe it's time to see what i could add to the dumping list. Muhahaha.

There's still a weird churn in my stomach now. Some repercussions from the headache i had when i was in slumber land at night. Slept for 2h after waking up for a mere 1+h to have breakfast and do QT. Ate an ice cream in the afternoon in an attempt to cheer myself up from the workings of the brain. I shall pray that my brain would return to normal again without any aches. Wait, i need my brain to be in a tip-top condition actually...

So, whilst the others are probably at metamorphosis camp having service now, i shall be a good day and do the last few readings for Maths S.

God is good! =)

Cute slugs. =)

Flushed away slugs are cute! =)

Go to this site for a preview of the cuto slugs:
http://flushedaway.awn.com/?type=video&vidID=18

=)

Too much of x-box is NOT good! Yesterday after walking aimlessly around orchard for approximately 45min, we went over to rachel's house to watch movies and play x-box. And argh... in a mere 30min, i said sh*t once already. Bleah! It's bad! I have managed to stay off that word for a really really long time already! And used the word "lousy" once too... ahhhh! No more x-box already, it takes away a part of my sanity.

And i'm sick of shopping. Window shopping i mean. Haha. I don't have the money needed to buy the things that i want to. So. Haha. Byebye shopping. No vivocity for me anytime soon.

After cell outing yesterday night, i went for YA and had candle-lit cell time with vanessa. =) I love my cell leader! =)

It's a nice little sunday morning (and i'm stuck at home because my daddy contends that i have to study for my maths s paper) so i've nothing much to really say. Uh so i guess, i'm going off now! Byebye! =)

PasSiOn!

I like this definition of passion: A strong or extravagant fondness, enthusiasm, or desire.

Hee. Am kind of too zonked out to really think about elaborating further about the topic or blogging about anything in particular. So should roughly stop here for now.

=)

Reminder:

Besides looking down on people, self-pity is pride too. Because you're still looking at yourself but not God, you're putting yourself before God.

Humility shujing, HUMILITY!

Discipleship. =)

Just came back from an great YM service. =)

Hosea's message was... mind-blowing. Especially the last bit. Not commiting adultery doesn't make you faithful... it's pure devotion which qualifies you as faithful. And the essence of Christianity is not just a relationship... it's a discipleship relationship. It's about... denying the flesh and taking up the cross.

One verse hit me real hard. Luke 9:26. "Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.". I was like... ouch. Sorry Lord. Have i submitted my all to Him? My studies, my families, everything else i have? Ouch.

Luke 9:23, "Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me.""

Deny the flesh.

High!!! =)

With a banana in hand, i feel like some monkey going a little crazy in the brain. (healthy kind of crazy. haha.)

Winnie asked me a few minutes ago for a remedy for fatigue. I gave her this prescription... think its really useful. But she'd only get to tell me how she feels about it tomorrow morning at the fastest i think. But anyway... here it is, try it if you want to.
1)Walk towards your bedroom; and when you get into your bedroom, walk towards your bed.
2) Plonk yourself onto your bed and spread yourself out in the a comfortable position.
3) Close your eyes...
(I think you wouldn't need me to teach you the rest of the steps... they'd settle themselves.)

I'm going to try that soon. After i finish my 2nd banana.

Byebye! =)