Sequel to my birthday!

Haha it's a day after my first day of being 19.

As you all know, I've changed my computer so i've lost all my bookmarks. So, i revisited the blogs (and the links) just now. (haha, i was supposed to do QT in this time slot but my sis is still sleeping and we share the same room so YA...) Discovered a few new blogs which i never knew existed previously (now i do!), and realised that i'm somewhat linked somehow through some blogs (eeks.).

So to my dear shujing's-blog-readers out there, i am very-unpleased to announce that...

Shujing has single-handedly ruined her own birthday.

How, you might ask? I got angry at my parents.

About what, you might continue proding? At not allowing me to go buy doughnuts and having a cake instead.

Ok the real situation is probably much more complex than that, involving 18 years of, stuff.

So yes, Shujing spent the last 2 hours of her 19th birthday crying and getting angry at herself and calling herself stupid all over and over again. It was like, hey girl, "VERY WELL DONE", you've dishonoured your parents again even though you're parents are such blessings and you got childish again and are prevented them from hearing the gospel from you AGAIN.

Argh.

It's painful even reliving these memories from yesterday.

But well, i apologized to my dad yesterday before saying i needed to sleep and bursting into a sob in my bedroom. And stuck a piece of note on the bathroom cupboard thing in the morning apologizing and all.

So i've managed to get rid of a bit of my own guilt towards my stupid idoitic outburst of childishness yesterday night by apologizing.

Hai. Don't want to talk about it anymore. I'm going to cry again.

So, yes, this is the weak part of Shujing. Not the weakest though.

Are you ready to see more sides of Shujing? I guess i'll get exposed to more of my own weaknesses especially in this season of growing in God... cos i have been asking God to reveal my weaknesses to me so that i can work to strengthen them. Haha. So for all you shujing's-blog-readers out there, be prepared for more scoops from Shujing's life. =)