My purpose is found in You

You see the thing is - "i live to glorify God" means different things for different people. :)

I'm not going to ponder too much about this subject...

But birthdays just make me think about how i want to live my life... what accomplishments i wanna have, what kinda career do i wanna have, but more than the superficial resume stuff, the values i wanna bring and the convictions i wanna live by.

It's easier to see the small picture by looking at how it fits into the big one. :)

Ipod! :)

Haha... maybe i do need to get a ipod... :)

My photos and music take up almost 70gb of my harddisk space! :)

:)

But shall work hard for it! :) Yay. :)

All Things New

Remember when the Israelites went out of Egypt they had manna every morning (other than the Sabbath day) which they couldn’t keep to the next day? J The incense in the tabernacle was burnt every morning (Exo 30:7), that means our prayers must rise up anew every morning! Even the meat for fellowship offering for thanksgiving cannot be kept till the next morning!

 

But can you remember how much people like to hold things and emotions across the days? J Haha…

 

But in the same way you don’t keep the manna across the days (if not it’ll get stinky and rot and decompose), you don’t bring your anger or sadness over across days!

 

Lamentations 3:21-23,

“Yet this I call to mind 
       and therefore I have hope:

Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, 
       for his compassions never fail.

They are new every morning; 
       great is your faithfulness.”

 

Once the morning comes and the sun rises, it’s a NEW day and ALL THINGS are made new!

 

All things are made new – your emotions, your soul, your spirit, your mind. And not just you! Your friends are renewed as well… don’t think bad about them across different days because THEY are a NEW PERSON every single morning! (Psalm 30:5)

 

Zepheniah 3:5,

“The LORD within her is righteous; 
       he does no wrong. 
       Morning by morning he dispenses his justice, 
       and every new day he does not fail, 
       yet the unrighteous know no shame.”

 

If you look at the above verse, God dispenses justice EVERY MORNING! The Chinese have a saying… about leopard cant change its spots right? But the fact is this – in God’s Kingdom, change and renewal happens every day! J Give yourself a chance to renew yourself every morning… and give your friends and the people around you a chance to be a better person too. J Only the unrighteous are the ones who don’t change and don’t let others change every morning. J

 

Also, If renewal takes place specifically in the morning and EVERY DAY, let’s make sure we seek the Lord every single day so that we get refreshed and renewed in body, soul and spirit every day. Don’t live on the anointing from yesterday… because today is a NEW revalation, a NEW encounter, a NEW anointing, a NEW spirit of flesh to be placed in you!

 

HE MAKES ALL THINGS NEW!

 

Isaiah 65:17, “Behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things willnot be remembered, nor will they come to mind.”

 

I discovered that there was this journal - "Asian Journal for Pentecostal Studies" - in my school elibrary! Haha. :)

Crazy right. :)

Maybeeeeee i can just have seminary info just in my own school now. :)

Simplicity

I would rather talk less if i could. :)

I would rather need less assurance if i could. :)

I would rather think simply if i could. :)

I would rather be more stable if i could. :)

But still, God always makes me happy and joyful. :)

Talk less

Hahaaaaa... it says that the average man talks about 15,000 words a day, while the average woman talks about 30,000 words a day... 

And i feel like decreasing mine to less than 30,000 words. :) So talkative and whiney lahhhh, i don't quite need it. :)

Actually hmmm i wld think it's not how positively it can go, but how much it can survive pressure and fights. :)

Sneakyyy ahhh

The sneaky overseer is blog-surfing... and really... through surfing through the blogs, you kinda get an idea of who's good friends with who. :)

But muahhahahhahaha i don't get a tagboard. That's good. :)

And neither am i a believer that any portion of my life can be make known to public. :)

Ohhhh weellllll but anyways this portion, after sniffing life (i said it's like drug addict and alvin said yeaaa you're addicted to Jesus so makes sense), is to learn how to be a good friend. Aiyooo even such things are so unnatural! :) Haha now ppl teach relationships until i kinda know what i'm supposed to do... but can someone teach me about friendships first? :) Haha. :)

21st birthdays

Haha...

My ideal 21st birthday is simple. :)

Just bring me out for a movie, then have supper afterwards at one of the usual places. :)

I dont like mass gatherings cos then i'd have to entertain myself and feel sad about why i spend my birthday alone even with so many people around.

I dont like expensive food either cos food to me doesnt mean much.

I dont like impractical presents cos i have too many other things i want. :)

I'm so picky lah. Buddenn again, i'm softhearted. :) So eventually, anything will be good and amazing. :)

Communications

It's interesting ironic that with the plethora of social networks and communication channels, we're just not exactly communicating a lot... :) 

You gotya facebook, twitter, msn, blog... but it's lke reading your bible without knowing God.

CAN WE COMMUNICATE MORE? Roar.

Human tendencies

We're always trying to strive to reach some kind of happiness equilibrum... :) There's a tendency to wanna try to correct what we think is wrong to what we think is right... to correct what we think causes unhappiness to what we think wld cause happiness... to correct what we see shouldnt be the case to what we see should be the case.

It's easy when your happiness equilibrum is changed by yourself... but often times your happiness equilibrum is affected by many other people as well. :) Or rather, you affect the happiness equilibrum of other people haha. :)

Whichever case, hmmm best is actually if you could change your own thinking and attitude so that you reach your own happiness equilibrum with the same old situations. :) So that you dont hurt the people around you; so that you dont cause any unhappiness for others. :)

This is such an egoism (one of the ethical theories) point of view lor. Haha. :) So sorry, utilitarian just couldnt suit the picture at this point of time. :)

Went one whole round and figured...

Wheeee! :)

I'm realistically saying, i don't understand that thing called romantic love. :) Haha. Asked, looked, tried to decipher, but nothing much gave any answers. :)

It would be nice if the principle of reciprocration worked everytime... but the problem is it doesnt always. :) So it's weird when it doesn't and weird things happen. :)

Then you're trying to balance out caring for someone, and really protecting yourself too. :)

Haha... well everything helps confuses me further, doesn't clear the air, does it?

I should stop thinking so much already, sorry for the blabber. :)

Anyway... i miss God, do you miss Him? :)

Awwww

One of the most romantic lines i've heard so far... rephrased of course... "Eve wasnt taken out of Adam's head to rule over him - but from his side, close to this heart and under his arm - to be loved and protected."

Awwwwww. :)

Haha.

Boo

It's a generation searching and crying out for love. And because there's love, there's hope and there's purpose, there's something to protect, something to care for, something to bother about.

You were a product of love, and you are meant to be a bringer of love.

Love that's unsmeared, beautiful, and holy. :)

Haha

Aiyarrrr... i should stop thinking so much. :)

Waste energy only. Haha. :)

Relationships. :)

It's really an interesting time of my life... :)

This year GoP really that loud word is "connecting" and "relationships". :)

And thank God over the past month i've already learnt so much about relationships... sometimes through the hard way, sometimes, thank God, by looking at the relationships for others. :)

Whatever the case, whatever experience i have, to use it to minister to someone else, and use it to honour God. :)

(Wow, good job shujing, that was a nice ending. :))

Young and growing

You're young and you're trying to grow and figure out where you lie in God's mighty plans.

You try to dream bigger than yourself because your God is bigger than yourself.

You try to love more than what you did yesterday because you know there is much more to care about than your own needs.

You try to connect and influence more in a godly gentle manner because you kinda know that's what you're called to be.

But you still struggle between the girl inside you and the woman you are trying to be.

Sometimes the picture is unclear although at the moment certain words will dictate how you expend that portion of your life.

Other times you try to have your life founded on the Word of God, but often it is unclear what the direct decision should be.

The beauty of it all? You depend on God... because you are He says that you are beautiful, you are His beloved, and He believes in you. :)

Discontentment

Was as usual getting out of bed (after a really weird dream) to do QT in the morning... well, i was ultra gonggggg today....

Then i realised... hey, actually why am i doing my QT? Out of a routine, or do i really believe God to talk to me? I mean, yes i can still feel the presence of God after i speak in tongues etc, but is that at a level higher than before? If it's not, then why do i have to do QT to get to a level that i've been at before?

Hmmm... wellies... i've decided to figure out my own goals of doing QT... not just a blind routine anymore, but something specialised for myself. :) Beyond knowing it in its terms of "devotion" or "quiet time", to know why i'm doing QT. :)

Lalala... if i get the resources, maybe we'd see youtube videos my cell blog soon! :)

It can always be better, but be contented

Life can always be better...

Friends can get closer and be there more;

Ministry can be much better without me making so much mistakes;

Studies can be so much better with me studying more;

My preaching and sharing can be so much better with more empowerment from the Holy Spirit.

But i am contented with what i have now and who i am now.

Happiness. :)

Wheee... my happiness isn't dependent on anybody else or anything else, just dependent on God's continual goodness to me. :)

I shall always be happy. :)

And you are invited to share in my happiness (and sometimes whining! haha). :)

Spiritual Life

Whaaa... all that's floating in my head is "put God as your first priority!" then everything else will come nicely in... that's the most basic.

That's something i aim to do consciously... God is not just my first priority, He's my only priority, and all other priorities arise from there. :)

God's my life. :)

And also, thanks to all of you who have been a part of my life... you make my life colourful and vibrant. :) Yay. :) And to all those who love me dearly, apologies if i dont love you as much as i should. Reciprocration is difficult sometimes. Haha. :)